Weather: Incredibly Sunny and bright.

Feeling: I dunno... not too well... headache.... ech.

Why do we live in a society where finding the "right" person is so hard, and keeping the "right" person is even harder?? I am just puzzled by daily happenings of people... dating, not dating, rebounding, and breaking up. I am part of the not dating group... I'd really like to say that I am much too busy with life to get a man, but that's just excuse. I guess I just really need to get some stuff out of my system... like a nursing degree. Nursing takes 2 yrs, 3 yrs, counting prereq's. However, for me, it has been nearly forever, and seems that day may never come. I am really mostly to blame for my own lack of progress; I always barely maintain status quo(try to most of the time anyway), but never make any advancements. I should improve myself. I desperately need some sort of personal, internal make over. I need to read more books, study harder, smile more often, and remember that actions speak louder than words. If I want to make a difference in my life, it has got to come from me, and I must work hard for that to happen. So starting March(oops, it already started without me~!) I will strive to be a better self. Maybe I can finally finish One Hundred Years of Solitude by Gabriel Garcia Marquez. I was half way through when I quit. I believe there is a huge reap of benefits available from reading, and they include better writing skills, better vocabulary, and the ability to present myself better(due to more knowledge, class, and overall sophistication). I really haven't read much in the last couple of years other than the 4 volumes of Harry Potter series, and the monthly magazine Cosmopolitan, which I have read religiously cover to cover while working on my constipation in the bathroom. Also, it really can't hurt to refresh myself of Spanish, porque me olvidio el espanol ya aprendi en la escuela. My Spanish has gone from alright to close to zilch. I need to work on it. It is one of my few goals in life to master several languages, including Spanish and Chinese, and if at all possible, Japanese. (I try to consider my English and Korean adequate enough to be fluent.) So brushing up on Spanish, and whatever Japanese I had learned a while back, definitely could do me some good. Also, snacking... a big problem. I usually did not snack often, but ever since becoming boyfriend-less in early 2002(try early January~) I have spent excessive amounts of time not sitting, but lying down on the couch watching the telly, stuffing myself to extreme limits. I think my stomach's volume has expanded to adapt to the amount of food I shove down my throat. Lately, I have suffered from more than frequent heartburns, mostly due to excessive drinking of coffee, and snacks. I need to cut back, and also eat less. I'm a friggin' hippo for goodness sakes! I have gained 15 pounds from my normal/average weight(which, even that, wasn't on the thin side), and that is definitely NOT healthy. I'm not one of those chicks who obsess about dropping 40 lbs by next week, but my current physical conditions concerns me greatly. Also, utilizing the Bally Total Fitness membership I've been paying for the last 4 years wouldn't be too bad either. I need to also review and grasp a better understanding of Anatomy and Physiology, and microbiology. Anatomy, simply because I have a really shabby knowledge in a few sections, and also forgotten quite a bit, and physio and micro, because I did poorly and I know it. Maybe starting tomorrow, I will be a more hard working, earnest person. I need to be, because I just simply cannot afford not to be. Does that make sense??