Wow. Talk about going blogless for nearly a week! I haven't been able to suffer through blog-withdrawl symptoms yet, because my week was quite occupied. Let's just say that it was an emotional hodge-podge of things, and I'm just glad the week is over and so is the emotional train wrecked in my mind. I am SOOOOO loving Norah Jones these days. So cool. So calm, yet passionate. So soothing yet persuasive... it's a new jazz thing. Also, very loving SATC, downloaded straight to my comp, thanks to Kazaa. I don't know how I lived without HBO for so long! Maybe I can watch the sopranos next or something. I had this thing with "K" and I feel very withdrawn from him, and him from me. So my status is still single, still quite lonely, but not quite so much free time, because of one of the emotional train wrecks mentioned previously. I took a psych exam today. I know, it is Saturday, but I have class. I was studying last night, but I got really tired, and wanted to get up early in the morning and study, but instead over-slept. So I won't be too surprised when I get a D or something...

The thing about yesterday... I have this customer, who is a CPA, and also owner of a sauna in koreatown. Anyways, rude straight from the beginning, and yesterday he complained about something, and when I gave him a reply that obvious did not suit his temperament, he asked to speak to the owner. The owner, at the time was with a customer, and I told him, very politely, so. He proceeded to call me a Á¤½Å ³ª°£ ¹ÌÄ£³â, and also ½Ã¹ß³â, and I think made a combo of those two very strong phrases as well. Direct translation in English would be close to crazy fucking bitch and fucking slut respectively, but in Korean it is very heavily offensive, because like most Asian languages, Korean is a very polite language, so terms like those listed above are not loosely used as in the F word or the B word in English. It nearly made me cry(I actually did shed a couple of drops of tears), which made me very angry... Why am I allowing this freak to get to me? Why am I allowing this god-forsaken bastard to depress my mood and ruin my day? But it did. It's not my fault, but I take the blame for being such a push-over. I should take a stand for myself and be the strong woman that I should be. However, that is very hard, and I'm putting that into my list of things to work on.

I was shaking nearly the whole day, and that is probably why I was worn out more than usualy last night. I need to be a stronger person and be capable of protecting myself and standing up for myself. If I don't, who will?

Haha.... I can't believe this! One quiz that actually speaks truth!! Yup, I am definitely not European... I'm asian. I think that lady might be my relative or something... looks a lot like something I see in my mirror... Heehee~! I got a big fat "A" on my English paper from Friday. That really made my day. Hopefully I can keep it up. Also, surprisingly, no tardies yet to English, which is at 7AM. Not being late, is just so not me. I am one of the few people who are even more fashionably late than the one who are already fashionably late. I feel as though 2003 is a really good year for me... maybe I'll even meet a guy~!!

You are not European.

What's your Inner European?
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Weather: Incredibly Sunny and bright.

Feeling: I dunno... not too well... headache.... ech.

Why do we live in a society where finding the "right" person is so hard, and keeping the "right" person is even harder?? I am just puzzled by daily happenings of people... dating, not dating, rebounding, and breaking up. I am part of the not dating group... I'd really like to say that I am much too busy with life to get a man, but that's just excuse. I guess I just really need to get some stuff out of my system... like a nursing degree. Nursing takes 2 yrs, 3 yrs, counting prereq's. However, for me, it has been nearly forever, and seems that day may never come. I am really mostly to blame for my own lack of progress; I always barely maintain status quo(try to most of the time anyway), but never make any advancements. I should improve myself. I desperately need some sort of personal, internal make over. I need to read more books, study harder, smile more often, and remember that actions speak louder than words. If I want to make a difference in my life, it has got to come from me, and I must work hard for that to happen. So starting March(oops, it already started without me~!) I will strive to be a better self. Maybe I can finally finish One Hundred Years of Solitude by Gabriel Garcia Marquez. I was half way through when I quit. I believe there is a huge reap of benefits available from reading, and they include better writing skills, better vocabulary, and the ability to present myself better(due to more knowledge, class, and overall sophistication). I really haven't read much in the last couple of years other than the 4 volumes of Harry Potter series, and the monthly magazine Cosmopolitan, which I have read religiously cover to cover while working on my constipation in the bathroom. Also, it really can't hurt to refresh myself of Spanish, porque me olvidio el espanol ya aprendi en la escuela. My Spanish has gone from alright to close to zilch. I need to work on it. It is one of my few goals in life to master several languages, including Spanish and Chinese, and if at all possible, Japanese. (I try to consider my English and Korean adequate enough to be fluent.) So brushing up on Spanish, and whatever Japanese I had learned a while back, definitely could do me some good. Also, snacking... a big problem. I usually did not snack often, but ever since becoming boyfriend-less in early 2002(try early January~) I have spent excessive amounts of time not sitting, but lying down on the couch watching the telly, stuffing myself to extreme limits. I think my stomach's volume has expanded to adapt to the amount of food I shove down my throat. Lately, I have suffered from more than frequent heartburns, mostly due to excessive drinking of coffee, and snacks. I need to cut back, and also eat less. I'm a friggin' hippo for goodness sakes! I have gained 15 pounds from my normal/average weight(which, even that, wasn't on the thin side), and that is definitely NOT healthy. I'm not one of those chicks who obsess about dropping 40 lbs by next week, but my current physical conditions concerns me greatly. Also, utilizing the Bally Total Fitness membership I've been paying for the last 4 years wouldn't be too bad either. I need to also review and grasp a better understanding of Anatomy and Physiology, and microbiology. Anatomy, simply because I have a really shabby knowledge in a few sections, and also forgotten quite a bit, and physio and micro, because I did poorly and I know it. Maybe starting tomorrow, I will be a more hard working, earnest person. I need to be, because I just simply cannot afford not to be. Does that make sense??

Mr Rogers passed away. That is so sad. That man was wonderful. I lived in the US from when I was 4, until I was 7 or so. I watched Mr. Rogers then. I went back to Korea, and came back when I was 10, and I saw Mr. Rogers then too. During the 3-4 years I missed his show, he had grown so much white, not grey hair, and I felt such disappointment that he had aged so much. Not that aging had any effect on his show, but the reality that he was aging, and that he would eventually grow old and die was just too hard. I loved the way he would always change right after coming home, take off his jacket, put on that sweater, button it up, and even change his shoes. He fed the gold fish, and always had interesting things to say, and I always enjoyed that he sang that "won't you be my neighbor" song himself. I really didn't like the train part, where it goes into the other side and go to some castle where these royal puppets and animal puppets talk and stuff.... I just liked Mr. Rogers and those darn puppets took my time away from Mr. Rogers. I'm having to write many eulogies since I started keeping a blog... Although I haven't seen Mr. Roger's show in a decade, the fact that he no longer walks among us, makes him greatly missed. He single-handedly raised about half of the children living in the US with Sesame Street. Great man, great life. I can only hope to become a person so influential...