Saturday, July 31, 2004

New Look

I finally have my new look up. There are obvious problems, but very very few, which I must say, I am extremely proud of myself. I'll get around to fixing the glitches tomorrow.

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Couldn't wait 'til tomorrow to get glitches fixed. I've tested things on IE, Netscape, and Mozilla Firefox, and things are looking ok on my end. Please let me know if there's a problem. I am just ultra excited about transitioning ever so smoothly into a new look. Although, if you notice, there's actually pretty little change that took place, but it's all about learning and incorporating new things each day!

I tried to clean up some stuff -- miscellaneous CSS text, and removed both my old comments links and the Blogger comments links (the only thing I don't like about blogger), and so on and so forth. I also like having each entry bounded by a rounded rectangle. I had a hard time finding a color that would match the orangy background -- white wasn't an option. I also wanted to avoid a look that would get tired easily -- I look at my blog often (narcisism) and got very tired of my old purple look, which is why I quickly had to make a new, whiter one. The whiter one did last a while longer, and I'm wondering if this orange can last as long. I'm not sure if I'll have time to do another face lift once school starts, but we'll see.

So far, birthday is passing by smoothly. I'm coming down with a cold, as it is made evident by the sniffling, sneezing, and occasional coughing. Stuffy nose and itchy throat, with a mild headache. Shane has an awful cold, and he doesn't fare well on cold medicines, so the poor guy had tough it out, and he was really ill. I think he gave it to me, just in time to make it a B-day gift. Fabulous. I'm going to try to relax and catch up on some sleep. Have a great weekend, everybody.

Happy Birthday To Me

Thanks to all who have wished me a happy 24th birthday. I am now officially 24.

However, I feel more bummed out than I ever have been, because of one thing.

Girls make best friends. It's what they do. Girls need a pal to pour out her secrets to, who, in return, will pinky-swear to keep them to herself and take it to the grave. Girls need to get giddy about boys and gripe about homework. Then they grow up to be women, who need to get giddy about lovers and gripe about their careers. The female species need best friend(s). I have had many best friends in the past. I lost many because I moved or they moved or we begin to hang out with different people and fell out. But I thought I had found my other half, platonically speaking, when I met Crystal.

Crystal is very different from I am. She's outgoing, with a sparkly personality. An excellent conversationist; even her small-talk is effervescent with zeal. She's everything I want to be that I am not. She's able to say "what's up" to a homeless guy (a scary, grungy looking one, no less) without blinking an eye, and even though she's so sweet and friendly, she's got the dilligence and the determination of no other. She lets no one tread on her, and she doesn't take crap from people. She's got more balls them many men I know.

Even though we have polar personalities, we some how clicked. We finish each other's sentences. When I start saying, "you know when something something something...." without any sort of antecedent, she says, "hell yeah, I know!" I really believe that we can be "friends forever" (for the lack of a better phrase!). If her moving to Iowa and spending 11 months a year there hasn't caused us to fall apart, I don't think anything else could. Thanks to wireless providers who offer free long distance and unlimited nights and weekend, we have kept in touch.

We don't have much memories to share. It's sad. We became friends during our senior year in high school. I was a nerd and she was on the tennis team. She hooked me up to tutor half the girl's tennis team! But by the time we committed to being best friends (this is more commitment than a boyfriend could ever pose on a girl), she was just half a year away from moving away to Iowa. She visits about twice a year, but I'm always working or going to school, and we can hang out in the evenings, but we can't spend too much time together. I think after years and years of saying that we should go to Magic Mountains (Six Flags), we finally did, but it took us over two years to plan and coordinate our schedules.

We don't have memories of thousands of shopping excursions. We don't have memories of hanging around on the beach every summer. We don't have memories of sitting around on a cafe, just catching up with our own readings. We don't have memories of ever hitting the library together to study for finals. We don't have memories of going on a double date. We don't have memories of taking a yoga class together. We don't have memories of going on a road trip together.

We don't have the things that many other best friends have, but we have other things. For example, literally the minute we begin each of our birthdays, we call each other. I would call her on June 9th, at about 10 PM here (which would be 12 AM June 10th in Central Time where Iowa is), and she would call me on July 31, 2 AM Iowa time, which would be 12AM PST. Just so we can be the first to wish each other a happy birthday on that very day. Just one of the things we did. But today, I didn't expect a call from her. I hoped to, but I didn't expect it.

I wish I knew what is going on. I know she is alive and fully-functioning. She had a situation with her family, and she wasn't talking to them. I've been trying to get her to call them. Maybe I had pressured her too much. Maybe it was just part of the "not-calling-home" disease that spread.

Whatever it is, I'm not about to find out. It's 12:19AM on my clock, and she hasn't called. She hasn't called in weeks. Why haven't I called, you ask. I have. I've called and called and called, and left messages after messages. She sent me a text message a while later -- I didn't know it was from her, because, as I had mentioned, my crappy Nextel phone doesn't show where the message came from. She wrote, "Sorry 4 not calling. Will call u soon. Please forgive me. Thank u for everything." It took me a while to realize that my bestfriend was the sender of this message. I mean, would you expect that sort of message from your best friend? I shouldn't have to read that from the closest non-blood-related person on earth. Please forgive me? Thank u for everything? It almost sounded like a good bye.

She was originally supposed to come home for her summer break in August. I was going to tell my boss I will be taking my vacation when she comes, but I don't know if she's even coming. A few weeks ago, I was mad. Fucking horsecrap I was mad! I was angry with her for ignoring my calls. By last week, it had soured into disappointment, and today, it has simmered into grief and intense sadness.

I think she probably knows that I will have had a lot of negative emotions toward her bottled up now, and with it constantly growing, it will be harder for her to build up the courage to call me. I also think that if she read my blog more than once in her lifetime, she will know me better. It may not be a correspondence between us, but it is where I display who I am best.

Crystal. I cannot forgive you. I cannot forgive you, via request by text message. I am not like voting for the American Idol. I simply don't accept forgiveness requests by text message. But you know better than anyone, that I strongly believe in our friendship. That I, think our friendship, is a given in our lives. It's an unconditional given that cannot be impacted by anything like this. And you know, better than anyone, that I am always here. Always. And when and if you decide to call me and decide to make things right, no forgiveness will be necessary -- because I have been and still will be your best friend. I have given you a guarantee before on our friendship, that it will not expire. It is up to you to believe.

Friday, July 30, 2004

Haloscan - Comments are Up

Comments are up, brought to you by Haloscan.com. Unfortunately, all your heartfelt comments left on the previous comments thingi is all gone. (Sigh) But the good news is that Haloscan seems to have improved greatly since I stopped using it last year, and now it's far better than the old one I've had. Except for the scroll bar lookin' all white (denting the background image of froggie), I think this is going to be fine. Oh yeah, there are now "Trackbacks" whatever that is.

WTF?

My comments thingi is no longer working. I thought it was temporary, and I thought it was just mine, but it isn't so. My brother's thing isn't working either, and I can't access their site. Since it's been that way for about 48 hours and I haven't gotten any e-mail regarding this situation, I think it's safe to say that I need to go back to haloscan. Not being very fond of Blogger's comments thing where people have to login and etc., I think haloscan is probably the only resolution. I know there are other ways, but people. I am talking about things that are available free.

All good things in life are free~. Like a smile. So smile a little today. It's on me.

Thursday, July 29, 2004

America Can Do Better and Help is on the Way

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As luck would have it, the only day I managed to get home just in time to watch The Simpsons, it isn't on. So it angered me to see John Kerry making an extremely long acceptance speech. He's officially the Democratic presidential candidate, it seems.

I sat down and had dinner (pork bulgogi -- oooooh~ I'm just having so much red meat these days!) and watched the thing, which was on every channel (I don't have cable). The speech was very moving. I loved the speech, except for a few parts.

Was the theme, "America Can Do Better" and "Help is on the Way?" Because that is what Kerry repeated over and over, and the spectators were holding up signs. I don't know. It doesn't seem very special -- I mean, you only get to run and get elected as president twice, and you want your presidency to be remembered as one of "help" being on the way? Weren't there other fancy slogans for other presidencies, like the New Fronteer and the New Deal and the Square Deal or something like that? I don't know. It made the US seem like we're all in a state of poverty and we need to be rescued. Oh yeah. Maybe I should use the word "we" since I don't belong here. I mean, I'm not part of y'all. But that's another story.

Another thing that bothered me was this. He mentioned in his speech that he is "not a man who wears his faith on his sleeve" (ok, the quote may be a bit off, but I'm quoting from memory) but he still spoke a great deal about the Christian god. Also, he ended the speech with god bless America, which is one of my all time pet peeves. You know, "In God we trust" and etc..

There is no god in the US. But you know, every president has got to be some goddamn WASP-y man. Recall that JFK's faith, namely the Catholic religion, caused a commotion because he wasn't Waspy. We all say that church and state are separate in the US, but only when it is convenient. Otherwise, we still slam the church and government together. I mean, didn't we just have some ruckus about removing the word 'god' from the pledge of allegiance? I honestly believe in installing good faith in the US and patriotrism to children, but making them recite the pledge of allegiance without telling them what it really means is just brain-washing. I was reciting the pledge of allegiance until I turned 20, until I wised up about what it actually was. I won't be reciting that thing until I get my citizenship (which then, I will only fake for the citizenship; afterward I won't be reciting it until they remove 'god' as 'god' has no business being in the pledge). By the way, if I hear one more reasoning that gay marriage should not be legalized because the Bible says it's evil/sinful/lewd -- I will honestly be kicking some ass big time. Can you say Con-stee-TOO-shun?

Also, I have been reading this. The Complete Idiot's Guide to the Bible. It's hilarious, very practical. Although probably not suitable for the pulpit or Sunday School, but think of it like a cliff notes version of the Bible that is pleasant to read (some of those cliff notes are tougher to read than the actual works -- take my word for it). I got through Genesis (first time EVER!) and now I am on Exodus. And this is great, because I've always wanted to finish the Bible (now I say that like I read the tome half-way through or something -- I read a few books, but not too many, but having attended church for many many years before I decided to call quits, I know my way around the book).

Y'all know I'm an atheist/agnostic/no preference/bordering Buddhist, but as a person who wants to study Western literature and wants to get the most out of it, I just have to study the Bible and know it well. I don't know if East of Eden by John Steinbeck (which is not part of Oprah's book club) would have been my favorite book had I not had the knowledge of the first sections of Genesis. Religious analogies and allegories occur abundantly in Western lit; there's just no way around it but to read it and know it. So I will.

Oops, by the way, I saw Hillary Clinton at the Kerry party, but didn't see Bill. Was he there? I'm sure, but it didn't seem like he was sitting near Hillary. Well, when Kerry mentioned health care, I saw her eyes twinkle! I am not a fan of her hubby, not because of repub or demi affiliations, but I honestly believe that a man with such little self-restraint can't be too healthy for a position with so much power, but that's not the point here. I love Hil. Can I call her Hil? Well, I hope that I can get my citizenship before she runs, because I'll want to vote for her! I know I know... I'll be voting without even knowing the facts and all, and voting blindly just by the sheer fact that she's a woman, which is very sexist, and she probably doesn't even want votes from a girl voting so idiotically -- I really have been having a streak of digressing! Nevermind what I was saying.

There's something wrong with my comments link. I hate it when crap go wrong with my blog! If you need to comment (I know I have offended various zealous Christians and Kerry fans (please don't martyr me -- I am neither a Repub or a Demi -- not trying to be some political pundit blog or anything, just commenting on the man's speech is all!), please do so with the second comments link, which is through Blogger. If you have blogger, you can log in; if not, leave a comment as anonymous, but please state within the comment who you are.

Ugh. I have an immense right shoulder pain. It's been there for the last few days, intensifying slowly, day by day, and now it is just unbearable. I'm going to try using the MAX™ Maximum Performance Massager that I bought for my mom last Mother's Day (or was it her birthday?) to see if that helps. Well, have a good night everyone, excuse me. I am going to go whimper in pain.

Personality Quiz Thingis

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I'm Getting the Los Angeles Times!

I'm Getting the Los Angeles Times!

I finally subscribed to the LA Times, which is the largest newspaper in the area. The Glendale News Press is really small, and I'm not even sure if they have separate delivery. The Pasadena Star is a much better paper, and even have their own website (which Glendale doesn't have... get with the times yo!), but it feels kinda Benedict Arnold-ish to get the Pasadena Star, and I don't even know if they make deliveries all the way to Glendale.

I need to read more news again, and not just the on-line kind. I absolutely love TIME magazine, and TIME hasn't disappointed me in terms of content, like the LA Times had. When I was a journalism major waaaaaay back when, I thought it would be fabulous to be an editor at the LA Times. So fabulous, it wouldn't have mattered if I was doing sports, editorials, or front page, or whatever. Then I started to get the LA Times, and started not to like it so much. I also got into my first car accident (not my fault) after a trip to the LA Times building in downtown, which was sort of a bad omen.

I still like the NY Times, or at least during the time I've read it, but it's really really much too expensive, and kind of snobby and pompous to be reading the NY Times all the way out here in Glendale. It's kind of like the way I see this guy at the gym that I work out at I used to work out at -- a tall, handsome guy, dark haired, in fantastic shape, on the treadmill, dripping bucketful of sweat and reading the Wall Street Journal. Dude, the print on that is so tiny! How can you read that while jogging, of all things? And this guy is a workout maniac -- his sweat soaks the paper and all, and he's still running, and still reading.

So East Coast newspapers make me feel snobby. If I move to NY, then I'd feel better about getting the NY Times, and will probably even read WSJ. (Oh yeah, it is my dream to live in NY, namely Manhattan, at least for a while.) What was my point again??

So I subscribed to the LA Times. I'm starting service on August 1, and I'm going to get my ass out of bed before my neighbors steal the paper bright and early and read it before I go to work! Yay.

I Need a New Cell Phone

I Need a New Cell Phone

I work in a cell phone store. My contract with Nextel expires next month, and I'm looking to get new service. As your cell phone expert blogger, I can officially make a statement: nextel sucks. They charge way too much money, and customer service people aren't even all that nice. As far as customer service goes, Verizon Wireless and T-Mobile are the best -- not only are they nice, but they're also extremely chipper, like they just had the most potent 'uppers' (are they still called uppers these days? I've never been a druggie, so I'm not familiar with the hip terms of these things -- once a geek, always a geek). I bet their supervisors are pointing guns to their heads and yelling out, "sound cheerful, dammit!" It may very well be possible that at T-Mobile, the supervisors are cracking whips, because they always greet you with, "It's a great day here at T-Mobile! How can I provide you with excellent customer service!"

So I'm probably going to go with either company -- Verizon or T-Mobile. I'm not too extatic about Verizon's service though -- sure they have great reception, but their CDMA service drains batteries like crazy. Also, they push 2 year contracts. I'll die before I get a two year contract. Did you know that most batteries have a life span of 1 year? Sure, you say. I'll just get a new battery after a year. Sure, you say. Until you find out that a battery can cost up to $50. Of course, aftermarket versions on eBay average $10, so you take your pick. Not all aftermarket products are bad, but your safest bet goes with the original.

Also, the plan concerns me. I would need nationwide long distance. The 39.99 price plan with Verizon's America's Choice™ plan gives 400 peak time, while the competition, T-Mobile, gives 600 for the same price. The upside is that Verizon gives unlimited mobile-to-mobile calling (aka "IN" network calling), which is great, because most of my pals are on Verizon.

I'm also not too keen on the phone models at Verizon. They're nice and all, but ... eh. I like the models at T-Mobile better. Also, I like the 600 minutes thing. I'm still debating, because it basically comes down to this: a phone model that is aesthetically pleasing to my eye, or being able to have unlimited calling to my friends and brother.

I still have a month to decide, thankfully. But I get anal about these things. It took me a year to buy a digital camera. It took me half a year to buy a discman!

What I really really really really want in a phone is this: a high resolution camera (1+ mega pixels), a sliding phone -- if not sliding, a clamshell phone with an outer LCD screen, also plays MP3's, and can store at least 256 MB of music files, also has the FM radio, along with other basic capabilities, such as easy to access txt/pix msg, polyphonic ring tones that are LOUD, easy to download new ringtones and graphics, comes in a nice color other than the navy blue (like my current Motorola i90c), preferably silver, ability to change the faceplate would also be nice. Am I expecting too much? I may have to start paying for my own service(my boss paid for it the last two years), and I just want things the way I want it, especially if I'm paying for it. (Sigh) To my knowledge, my ideal phone, just like my ideal man (there was a post written back in the day about my ideal man) either does not exist, or never has and never will exist. Life is full of compromises -- and they're not always such a good thing.

Wednesday, July 28, 2004

Osama is My Bro

Osama is My Bro

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A half-brother of Osama bin Laden says he enjoyed most of Michael Moore's "Fahrenheit 9/11," except for what he called "inaccuracies" about his family. "It's a moving film," Yeslam Binladin, a Geneva-based tycoon and one of the al-Qaida leader's 54 siblings, said in an interview with the French magazine VSD. "I even laughed at times," said Binladin, adding, "but a lot less when he states errors or inaccuracies about my family, knowing perfectly well that he's deceiving the public."

Eek. Osama has over 40 siblings??

Tuesday, July 27, 2004

Memory Lane

Memory Lane

This is probably one of the few times in my life I have actually stood in front of a camera with just a swim-suit. Even then, as you can see, I was a bit self-conscious. I mean, just look at that gut! Just kidding. I wasn't chunky at all as a child. This photo was taken when I was about 4. I can tell, because my brother's still in diapers, but walking in the photos taken here. This is when we used to live in Bellflower, CA, a bit south of Los Angeles for you non-Californians. I spent my early years here, and even attended kindergarten. My best friend at the time was a gal named Kelly. She lived in the same neighborhood, and it was a really nice neighborhood. Apartments, but kind of in a gated community, without the gates(no need for gates, as it was an extremely safe area) and apartments were only two stories high, and there were a bunch of these almost-house-like buildings. Each building housed four families, to my knowledge. There was also this Indian girl, who taught me how to tie my shoelaces. She was very smart. I wonder where both of these girls are now.


These two photos are my favorite photos of myself and my brother. It seems like he's always had a bigger head than I had, although he's three years younger than I am. I would gaze at these photos for hours, sometimes, and wonder how this little baby boy shot up to be over six feet tall. And he's no where as chubby as he was as a baby -- he's skinny as a stick.

I am SUCH a dork, and the dorkiness is evident even in my youth. What AM I doing?

I swear, I am not screwing over Hawaii! This was taken when my family went to Hawaii. It was the only time I've been there, and I recall nothing from it. I should be about 4 or possibly 5.

I remember getting mad at my brother for blowing out the candles with me. It was my birthday (as indicated by the paper tiara) and I was supposed to blow them out by myself! I remember getting pissed.

I know it's really hard to see, but the girl with the pink cotton candy looking thing on her head is yours truly. I was the clumsiest and the most forgetful child in the universe (I used to leave the umbrella at school and walked home in the rain without realizing that I had brought an umbrella at all, then get yelled at by my mom for forgetting the umbrella, and walk back to school in the rain to get it), and my mom was extremely fretful that I'd get lost at the amusement park and become an orphaned child and get adopted to a foreign country. The occasion was for Children's Day in Korea, May 5th. This is in the second grade, possibly third, because the girl sitting next to me was my best friend and next door neighbor at the time, and she moved next door when I was half way through the second grade. She was my age, and we became very good friends, and kept in touch until I was about 16, when she moved from Korea to Canada. Our piano teacher took us and a few other kids to the amusement park.

Here is a group photo -- I'm again the one with the giant pink ribbon. The kid on the very right is... my brother. You have to realize that we were, by this age, already excellent piano players. I remember going to a competition, and won the gold trophy. My brother and the nextdoor bestfriend-at-the-time girl got silver trophies. We recently tossed away the trophies because they were gathering tooooooo much dust on the fire place in our old apartment, and we don't even have a fire place any more, so we threw it out. My mom still has the paper certificate though, as she still has all the certificates we got when we were in our elementary school years.

This is the Christmas pageant at a Catholic church I used to attend. This is proof that I can show people who tell me that I don't want to go to church because I don't know the church. People. Please. I know the church well enough to play the Virgin Mary at the church Christmas pageant. Anyhoot, I recall the kids making fun of me and the kid who played Joseph, and obviously, a scandal occurred, where we were rumored to be dating. Reminder: I was 8! I actually think the Joseph kid had some sort of crush on me, because when I told people that he was too short, he got really mad and upset. But look at the photo -- I'm towering over him!


Here's a photo of old Joseph, looking important with his fake, glitter-covered staff. I'm, of course, looking very demure and holy, with a giant baby doll with a halo. I recall that day as a blur -- and it's not just because it was so long ago when I was young. Never ever, in human history, was the Virgin Mary played by a girl with glasses. Never. Actually, it happened because of spite. This girl wanted to play Mary, but she had really short cropped hair. One of those pixie cuts, I assume. She even argued that she had a white dress to wear, if she was to play Mary. Well, my best friend at the time insisted that the Virgin Mary cannot, absolutely cannot have short hair, and that I should play her because I had long hair at the time. (Ignore the ultra short bangs my mom cut herself -- she cut bangs and she saw that it was good -- too bad the daughter hated them.) The Sundayschool teacher agreed and said that I should play Mary, and that cropped-hair girl should loan me the dress. Then she argued that Virgin Mary did not wear glasses. So I simply had to remove them for the pageant, and was damn close to being legally blind on stage, which could have turned out hazardous, but fortunately, didn't. I mean, I was already unpopular -- if I tripped or dropped Baby Jesus, I would have been condemned!

So those are some more photos of my childhood, up to when I was 8. You know, this is actually very sad. My childhood was actually quite affluent -- not so much when I started school, but we had so many vacations and so many photos taken as a family. When I turned 9, my family moved to the US. The only vacation we went on was a day trip to San Diego to visit Sea World. There's actually very very few photos of me after I turned 9. There was little reason to take pictures. When I first started elementary school here, I thought we had to buy the school photos. So I have one from every year, until I found out that we don't have to buy them. So I didn't have any photos for a few years, until I hit Junior high and had to order a few to give out to friends. But after that, there are very little photos.

The one occassion where my family was gathered to take photos was at my high school graduation. Since my Dad left the States four months after I graduated, it would have been my final photos with my dad, ever. But as luck would have it, my graduation photos came out ALL BLACK. So I have absolutely NO PICTURES from my high school graduation -- I have a few from grad night at Disneyland, but none of the actual ceremony. So these baby photos, taken from a period of my life I can't recall, are precious to me. So now that I have a digital camera, I try to take self photos, even if they're geeky. If I were to die today, I would want a recent photo for family and friends to remember me by. Gee, that's kinda morbid.

Randomness

Randomness

And here's the list of songs I listened to on my way home today:

Michael Jackson -- Man in the Mirror
Bunch of People -- Ain't No Mountain High Enough
More Bunch of People -- Breaking Up Is Hard To Do
N'Sync -- Gone
Madonna -- All By Myself
Ludacris -- Move
O Town -- I Swear
Paula Abdul -- Forever Your Girl
Ricky Martin -- She Bangs

I especially love the 'Man in the Mirror.' The lyrics really mean something to me -- I¡¯m starting with the man in the mirror / I¡¯m asking him to change his ways / And no message could have / Been any clearer / If you wanna make the world / A better place / if you wanna make the / World a better place / Take a look at yourself, and / Then make a change. Sometimes I get so frustrated with the ways of the world, and I want to do something about it. It is the biggest step I can do, to change myself first and foremost. If you know me well, you know that I never ever litter. I'm no environmental freak, but I don't litter. I'll be holding on to that candy wrapper until I find a goddam trash can. I don't lash out at people, no matter how angry I am. Unless, of course, you're one of the lucky few I can feel comfortable enough to vent (e.g. my brother, my mom, Crystal, Shane, etc), but you will never see me become a godzilla with a sales person at a mall or throwing a temper tantrum at a restaurant because I got salad dressing on the salad and not "on the side." So I try to do little things that in my own personal and humble opinion, make me a better individual.

Everyone is so crazy, especially since it's election season. Vote for Kerry, Heinz is evil, Bush just sat there when 9/11 happened, gay marriage should not be legalized, marijuana should be legal, raise taxes, lower taxes, who increased what deficits, and etc. etc. ETC.! You know, opinions are abundant, and I always notice that sometimes, it is the least informed and the most ignorant, who are loud about their opinions.

If you think Bush did such a poor job as president, or that Kerry is not going to be a good president or whatever, do me a favor, and show that you are worthy of making such a claim. What have you done? Have you ever thought about whether you are worthy of voting? Do you give back to your community? Did you rally infront of the White House to legalize gay marriage? Did you volunteer to be a human shield before the Iraqi conflict? Do you read the news (and not just get it spoon-fed to you by the TV or radio)? Have you helped an old woman with her bags when she's crossing the street? Do you leave your soda and popcorn in your seat after the movie when you leave the theater? Take in a foster kid into your home? Donate money to the animal shelter? Adopt a pet?

What have you done, beside exist, that makes your voice worthy of being heard? Saying that you pay taxes, therefore you have the right to critique a man, any man, republican, democrat, independent, or rebel, doesn't say much. Become an active member of your society. You don't have to go sit in the DNC, but have a concern. Take actions (actions speak louder than words people). Look in that mirror, and take a look at yourself and make a change.

Blue Moon

Blue Moon

Blue Moon Info -- My birthday falls on a Blue Moon! Ooh. What does that mean?

Let's continue with my memory lane crap.

Here I am in the midst of flowers.

I don't know what I am doing here, but I seem to do this frequently in photos. Yes, I was an oddball child. I am three years old in this one here.

Obviously, I have eaten one of the rice cakes and trying to hide it.

Here I am, standing very nervously with a giant female mouse in a polka dot, fashion faux pas dress. I am at Disneyland (duh). I also have pictures taken with the rodent's friends, a.k.a. pants-less ducks and male rodent specimen with red tights and round ears.

I'm not feeling very descriptive at the moment, but will be back later with more photos!

Monday, July 26, 2004

Memory Lane

Memory Lane

In honor of my upcoming birthday, I have decided to give you all a treat. You can see bits and pieces of my (pre-arranged to seem normal) childhood photos! I was such a pretty and happy child, it's a wonder how I grew up so twisted and anguished. Well, fasten your seatbelts everybody -- we're heading down Memory Lane!

This is probably my earliest photo. Obviously, I am at the hospital, and judging from the piece of note attached, I haven't been named yet. The tag says that I am a child of my mom. Look, I even have a doll!

Here, I'm decked out in traditional Korean garments. Obviously, it is some sort of special occasion -- I think it's my first birthday, but I'm not quite sure. Since I am able to stand on my own two feet, I am deducing that I am approximately one year old.

Here I am again, same attire, but with a hat. I was never a fussy baby. I ate when I was fed, slept when I was rocked, and smiled when the camera was in view.


This is myself, with my mom. This most definitely is my first birthday. You can see me grabbing a spoon. It is Korean tradition, to lay out various utencils and stuff on the table, to have your child grab something. Like a spoon, or pencil, or money. It was supposed to indicate some sort of luck. I first grabbed the spoon, and then a pencil, or so legend tells it. That means while I will uphold education as my strong suit, I will most definitely take pride in the fact that I will never go hungry. So here I am today. Working my ass off for an education, and despite living in meagre conditions, I am never ever hungry. In fact, it is rare when I am not full!


Here I am, with a friend. I don't know who that kid is, but the one on the right is me. We look like we were dressed to match. Parents are sinister like that. They make you wear matching clothes. It's the worst when you wear matching clothes as your sibling. But that bonnet-thing on my head is awful precious, ain't it?


Now here is one of my favorite photos of myself as a young child. I just adore that outfit. I have always looked great in pink. My mom was always fearful that I would get burned by the sun and develop freckles -- she had freckles herself, and was determined to believe that once they form, they NEVER EVER go away. I would be forever shielded from the sun... I even had to wear straw hats, until I was about 8. I wasn't a very popular child... But on the positive side, I still have pretty fantastic skin, even though I have freckles. I kinda like my freckles...

Ok. That's it for now. I know half the time photos won't show up because I would have passed my daily transfer limit at Ripway.com. Memory Lane will continue, after these messages. Or rather, tomorrow.

Monday Randomness

Monday Randomness

My current fav song is Liz Phair's Extraordinary. That is my song. It makes me want to dance in my chair as I blog. And although she's just absolutely hot looking, I'm not jealous at all!

So more randomness: I will give you the list of the songs I listened to on my MP3 CD player.

Elvis Presley: Love Me Tender
Creed: Higher
Beatles: Yellow Submarine
The Lady Who Sings Blue Moon: Blue Moon
Jets: Are You Gonna Be My Girl
Cheap Trick: I Want You to Want Me
Elvis Costello: She
Carol King: Where You Lead
Marc Anthony (aka Mr. Jennifer Lopez): Si Te Vas
Abba: Dancing Queen
Hot Hot Heat: Bandages
And then I got home. So you have to imagine me, sitting in my car, wailing at the top of my lungs, shrieking out these songs from the very bottom of my lungs. Especially Abba. You can't sing Abba without any choreographed movements. So I'm bobbing my head and tapping the steering wheel while belching out: You are the Dancing Queen, Young and sweet, Only seventeen, Dancing Queen~. I honestly think I should have been born at least twenty years before 1980 -- I would have really enjoyed being a hippie and what not, and really have a good jolly ole time in the 70's and 80's. Big hair is just so me!

Another Monday

Another Monday

Yesterday, I was dropping my brother off at church, and I realize how much I am subjecting my neighbors to. Let me clarify. My brother just got a new job in Koreatown, working as a cashier in a bar. Since he doesn't drive yet, he needs to be dropped off and picked up -- and since he now works at a bar, the drop off/pick up times are awfully inconvenient. On Saturday, I tried to go to bed early, so I can still get up at 2:30 AM without driving like a manic zombie, but couldn't get up! So my mom went to pick my brother up. She didn't even wake me, and I suddenly freaked and woke up at 3AM, wondering where my family went!

Let me add, that I absolutely despise being home alone. Especially at night. Not that I'm afraid. Ok. Maybe just a little. But I couldn't go back to sleep until my mom and my bro came back, which was darn close to 4AM. So when my brother wanted to be dropped off at church about noonish on Sunday, I was groggy, to say the least.

When I'm just driving to drop off my brother somewhere, I usually leave the house in my "home" clothes -- the comfortable clothes that I wear to putt around the apartment, which also doubles as pajamas. This attire usually consists of a ragged t-shirt and a pair of boxer shorts. And mind you, they're not the boxer shorts made for women -- they're the kind that men wear. My mom bought a pack that was too small for my brother (my brother's about 6'2" -- give or take an inch) and I ended up wearing them.

Getting used to men's boxer was a bit trying. I mean, the back part is kind of weird, and so it the front part. Why is there a giant hole in the front? I'm thinking that it would be used for men to urinate with their boxers on, but then I'm thinking, how difficult is it to yank down your boxers (with an elastic waist) to urinate? So I digress, but if anyone can enlighten me about the purpose of those gaping partition, I'd appreciate the heads-up.

Anyways. So I just wear that when I leave home, to take wherever my brother's going. I live in an apartment building with approximately 20 homes. It is very probable that a neighbor or two will spot me, walking around the building in a tattered shirt and boxers with flip-flops and bed-hair (although I hear that having bed-hair/bed-head is just the ultimate way to look chic, but in my case, I look like a brunette lioness). So yesterday, I had the thought that I may be subjecting them to too much torture.

Again, I am forgetting what my point was, but I guess the moral of this story is to dress up a little when going out of doors.

In other news, I am having an average Monday. I had Jjam-Ppong for lunch. Jjam-Ppong, or Cham-pon (I think that's how the Japanese spell it), is not Korean and not Japanese. It is frequently sold in Chinese restaurant, but it is not Chinese either. If anyone can tell me the origin of Jjam-Ppong and Jja-Jang-Myun, please do so. From what I understand, they are originally Chinese, but adapted to fit Korean's and Japanese's respective tastes. I could be wrong. But that's what I had. Jjam-Ppong is noodles in an extremely hot and spicy soup, filled with various seafood, like squid, tiny octopi, clam, half-a-crab, and cabbages and carrots, among other things. Now I'm very full and also getting a bit lethargic.

Sunday, July 25, 2004

Great!

Great!

Now a dog can do something I can't do! Will the wonders ever cease!

Will Blog for Food

Will Blog for Food

My family has eaten without me, and now it's all up to me to satisfy my hunger. It's half past three in a scorching hot afternoon, and all I had was some ice cream. Not that the ice cream wasn't gloriously decadent in the best way, but sometimes a person's got to have some real food.

I was thinking of having this one. I had the chicken flavored rice (which did, surprisingly, taste like chicken flavored rice) from the same brand, and it was ok. A bit too salty for my likings. It makes two servings, which means I'll have left overs. I'm still deciding. There's also some of that barracuda from yesterday that I can eat -- TranceLegend went fishing yesterday and ended up with a couple of dozens of barracudas; he gave me one about two feet long -- my mom did some stuff, and it tastes great. Looked like a giant scary fish when its body was intact though.

Well, let me get back to my contemplations. Looks like it's going to be a no-brainer though -- I mean, Fiesta Rice! It's the feeling of a fiesta captured in rice. Right?