Saturday, July 03, 2004

Where Did Everybody Go?

Where Did Everybody Go?

The roads were empty this morning when I was on my drive to work. Los Angeles felt like a ghost town. It was a bit overcast, and the silently changing traffic lights were almost eerie. There was a thickly laid uneasiness in the air.

Now there's a few cars rolling around, but here at work, it's pretty quiet and dull. Most people probably expect us to be closed, since they're probably off somewhere frolicking in a three-day-weekend delight. At least I get to go home by 3, which is definitely good. I'm also off Monday, which is just the best thing to have happened since Memorial Day. It's rare when I actually get a TWO day weekend, since I'm always working Saturdays.

Since my school decided to issue another I-20 for one year, I will be going back there. I'm hoping to take 15 units again, get that 3 units needed for graduation cleared, take s'more English classes and have a busy semester. Yep. Summer's just begun, and I'm already lookin' forward to the fall semester at school. (sigh) Maybe I am getting just a tad old. Maybe I should go play some bingo.

Friday, July 02, 2004

Gmail Not as Great

Gmail Not as Great

I once roared about the greatness of Gmail. I switched to it from Yahoo! and found myself very pleased. Until a few nights ago, when Gmail went down. It was down for a long time. And even now, when I was trying to make a new "Label" it said, "Oops... the system was unable to perform your operation. Please try again in a few seconds." So I did. And guess what. The same message appears. It has been this way for the last hour or so, so they should have actually said to try again in a few "gazillion" seconds. So on top of the e-mail malfunction, they also LIED. I'm going to have to wait and see if this is going to be a common happening.

Blogger Still Blocked

Blogger Still Blocked

Here's what a Mr. "Jeff" (who also runs a blog in Korea -- the URL escapes me at the moment) said:

When they took away the 5th, I didn't say anything. I wasn't a criminal.

When they took away the 2nd, I didn't say anything. I don't own a gun.

When they took away the 1st, I couldn't say anything.

Yep. It definitely does hurt to get your voice taken away. People, spread the word about Unipeak.com!

Test of Morality

Test of Morality

From: http://blog.naver.com/gaulbam/100003728207

This test only has one question, but it"s a very important one. Please don"t answer it without giving it some serious thought. By giving an honest answer you will be able to test where you stand morally.

The test features an unlikely, completely fictional situation, where you will have to make a decision one-way or the other. Remember that your answer needs to be honest, yet spontaneous.

Please scroll down slowly and consider each line - this is important for the test to work accurately.

You"re in Florida...In Miami, to be exact... There is great chaos going on around you, caused by a hurricane and severe floods. There are huge masses of water forming devastating waves. You are a news photographer and you are in the middle of this great disaster.

The situation is nearly hopeless - but you know that you will escape alive. You"re trying to shoot very impressive photos. There are houses and people floating around you, disappearing into the water. Nature is showing all its destructive power, and is ripping everything away with it.

Suddenly, you see a man in the water, and he is fighting for his life, trying not to be taken away by the masses of water and mud. You move closer.

Somehow the man looks familiar. And suddenly you know who it is - it"s George W. Bush! At the same time you notice that the raging waters are about to take him away ... forever.

You have two options. You can try to save him or you can take the best photo of your life. So, you can save the life of George W. Bush, or you can shoot a Pulitzer prize winning photo. A unique photo displaying the death the death of one of the world"s most powerful men.

*And here"s the question:* (Please give an honest answer)

Yes, it's one of those things you have to keep scrolling, so that suspense would be built up...

Would you select color film, or go with the simplicity of classic black and white?

I am Getting Old... Again

I am Getting Old... Again

It's about time I started griping about my age. This month I turn 24. That's not old at all, I agree. That's very young, in fact, that I know. However, when I say that I'm "gettin' old," I mean getting too old to be where I am right now. Life has to move in a schedule, and for an anal worry-wart such as myself, life has to follow a strict schedule. Eeek. I know. But that's just how I am.

I'm just too old to be an undergrad part-timer still, trying to make it. I should have made it by now. Not necessarily financially or anything, but set a track and be moving along it. I've laid down my tracks, but I ain't moving along it. It's stuck. I can't be stuck. I'm aging. I try not to be, but I am bothered. I am bothered by the fact that so many people are just zooming through, scorching and leaving tire marks, and even the slowpokes are getting by, at least step by step. I'm just static. I'm trying to get over this hill called "acceptance into a nursing program" and I'm jumping and hopping with all my might, but I keep landing in the same territory, same place, same no-man's land.

I am severely reminded of James Joyce's collection of short stories, called "Dubliners." Joyce wrote short stories about the Irish who were suffering from their state of poverty, and yet could not get out of it, finding themselves in a mode of paralysis. I am in paralysis. I can't do one thing or another, and it's not so much that I am jealous of my peers, some, who are even graduating from grad schools, although that is one thing that bothers me. It's the fact that I have to say "I can't" and I've never said "I can't." It's always been "I CAN" for me, and I've believed it. Now it's a steep downhill on a mountain of can't and I'm just sliding downwards rapidly into it's low death valley.

So that is why I am saying I am getting too old. I am getting too old to be digging myself out of this hole when everyone else is already building their palace of dreams. I am getting too old to be trying when evidently, it's futile. My fate is telliing me that resistance is futile, and while I rebelled violently -- I am getting old and tired in my mid-twenties. Ah. I am indeed aging.

Thursday, July 01, 2004

Sage Wasabi

Sage Wasabi

I have finally posted something on Sage Wasabi. Sage Wasabi! It was my last essay I thought up in my head about scumminess of Los Angeles -- it's hard to pick it out of my brain and transcribe it on a computer. I think it really lacks the passion from when it first came about -- I'll have to revise it when I'm in a particularly angry moment again. Hopefully soon. Also, comments and template are from blogger, so they are generic. Which also means that you either have to login to blogger to leave a comment as a distinct individual, or you can leave a comment as an "anonymous" person. You can leave your name in the message itself to identify who you are. I am thinking of getting rid of the blogger comments on this blog, when (and if) I update it to version 9.

Wednesday, June 30, 2004

Mmmm... Donuts...

Mmmm... Donuts...

Donuts turn me into Homer Simpson. I suddenly found a peculiar fascination for donuts and donut-related products. Perhaps there's also a job for me at LAPD -- just kidding. But donuts... mmmmm... tasty!

Excuse the brief post -- I will be busy the rest of the night scavenger-ing my kitchen for something edible -- haven't been feeling well at all. I'll save you the details, except one: I bought Laxatives. Yep. That's Laxatives with a capital "L" because they're Liars. I could have sworn the box said "chocolate stimulant laxative" as though it were a dual-functioning chocolate, like it was multi-tasking. Tastes great, and relieves constipation too! But No. I got home and re-read the box and realized that it actually says, "Chocolated" Stimulant Laxatives. So guess what that tasted like. Yep. The exact opposite of a yummy donut.

But I Wanted to Name My Kid Saddam!

But I Wanted to Name My Kid Saddam!

Click Here, of course, to get the article.

I am glad that the nation of Jordan has given full control of naming offsprings to the prospective parents, even if it means naming their child Osama or Saddam. Eesh. Like anyone would want to name their kid after these two guys... but then again, if the Bushes are still carrying on the Bush family name...

Tuesday, June 29, 2004

Immigration's One Fickle Pickle

Immigration's One Fickle Pickle

I'm having a great day. And a great night, except for the frustration involving logging into my Gmail account. First, this morning, I got a call from the in-charge-of-international-student's-immigration-although-she-doesn't-do-crap person, saying that now I can get an I-20 (needed document that provides me with the permission to study in the US). After about 3 weeks of believing that my status had evaporated! I do have a bone to pick with the whole system, but as long as things go well for me, I won't complain -- at least for the time being. So that's good news. I also got my date to register for the fall semester, a further indication that I will be able to stay, at least temporarily, at my current institution of higher learning.

Second thing that made tonight great is that I had a date. Very interesting young man, mid-twenties, well-cultured, opinionated, obviously passionate, extremely intellectual, pleasantly attractive. I've decided, in the recent light of things, to meet as many new people as possible. Diversify my circle. Get out of Koreatown and its insanity (I actually wrote a brilliant and rather cynical essay on Los Angeles and its filth while I was driving home yesterday, but it is all in my brain. I'll have to try to pick it out of there sometime -- wish me luck). There's got to be a real diamond in a sea of cubic zirconias. Got a promise for a round two for sometime later this week, and that was that.

Before, it was all about waiting it out. Waiting to get some answers from that damned immigration. Then, it was about survival, how I'm going to make it in LA without a valid legal status. Now, it's about having the endurance to go through the whole charade again, one more time. Going through the motions. It's never quite a firm "Yes" nor is it a certain "No." It reverberates back and forth, going in circles, round and round we go. Someday, I'll beat the system. And condemn its inefficiency to Hell.

Ugh

Ugh

"Gmail is temporarily unavailable. Cross your fingers and try again in a few minutes. We're sorry for the inconvenience."

Ugh.

Freedom of Speech

Freedom of Speech

I was going to title this entry "Censorship" but "Freedom of Speech" is just more optimistic, and I'll be covering both.

I try to read a lot of blogs, especially ones dealing with international issues -- especially Westerners living in Korea or just writing about Korea. These days they are constantly writing (it reads like they're yelling and venting) about the ridiculous censorship in Korea, because various servers, such as Typepad.com and Blogs.com and Blogspot.com were blocked by the Ministry of Information and Culture (? abbreviated as MIC). Koreans living in Korea can no longer access these sites, and the MIC's English webpage provides no acknowledgement of this even happening. Many Westerners are upset over this.

While I completely understand the outrage, I'll have to say one thing. You're not in the US or the UK anymore. Many westerners go abroad to foreign countries assuming that US rules (I'm going to just go with US instead of mentioning many other major western nations) apply. Freedom of speech is a fairly new thing in Korea. Just because it is a democracy does not mean that they have the exact same Bill-o-Rights.

A friend from Saudi Arabia told me that for stealing, the culprits hand will be chopped off with a large, machete-esque sword, as punishment. Sounds extreme, eh? What may seem like cruel and unusual punishment is their normal protocol. When you're in a foreign country, you have to abide by their rules -- since the US is one of the super-powers of the planet, US citizens especially are quick to denounce other cultures and deem their own as superior. Remember that one kid who was in Singapore or something and was supposed to be caned, as in beaten with a stick? You break the law over there, you will get punished as they will over there. It may seem wrong to you, but who's to say how one nation is to govern their people? Just because US holds mucho power, does not mean that the laws in the US are the best and should suit everyone else. When immigrants come to the US, they adapt to US rules and regulations -- when Americans go abroad, they should do the same. If they are not willing to accept that, they need to reconsider their trip.

Of course there are exceptions. There are basic human rights, such as rights to survival, and such, that should be universal (although it isn't quite yet). However, variations in culture means variations in customs. Something like freedom of speech is a relatively new thing in Korea -- just about a decade or so ago, you were punished if you said something to offend the president. It is during YS Kim's presidency that this rule was done away with.

Watching The Last Samurai has made me realize that some old-fashioned ways die hard. Die very hard. People will evolve as they need to, so don't force your ways upon any group. Many would have thought that the Samurai's are crazy because they stuck to their old ways which wouldn't have been too strong against the rising forces of gun power, but it is their spirituality that made them stick by their ways of life. Sometimes that's necessary. So don't be too upset that your blogs have been blocked. Korea will evolve in its own time and own way, not because something is unimaginably horrific to Westerners.

Monday, June 28, 2004

Dialogue: The Moor's Last Sigh

Dialogue: The Moor's Last Sigh

Rushdie's The Moor's Last Sigh is finally growing on me. The mood is very similar to Gabriel Garcia Marquez's One Hundred Years of Solitude, as mentioned before. However, the stories are more fluid, and the characters are more diverse. I found some intriguing passages -- I should have marked them with post-its, but since I was reading for pleasure, and therefore not required to write an analytical/critical essay on it, I didn't think of it. I wasn't sitting at my desk reading with a notepad and pen in my right hand, ready to jot notes; I was on my stomach, on my bed, covered to my shoulders in my warm blankie. This has become my new favorite position to read -- when I get tired, I just close my eyes and let sleep set in, without having to get up. I just push the book aside, and well, I digress as always.

This book is quite unlike others I've read in the past. I would describe myself as a person who craves stability and security, very fond of old traditions, and hard in accepting change, although I face challenges quite boldly when I must. Rushdie's not a traditional writer -- his novel doesn't address things that most old-fashioned story-tellers do. It's very hard to describe, and even more difficult since I am somewhat of an ignoramus still, in the literary world.

The one thing I recognize is the fluidity of the words. They must have some sort of meter to them, because my eyes seem to flow through the pages, rhythmically. There is a certain harmony in the juxtapositioning of words and phrases. It's truly an art form, unseen but in a few writers. What the words and phrases actually depict, are not at all concrete. They do require quite a bit of thinking and comprehension.

Even more grandiose than the wordplay are the characterization of the people. Each person has a tale to tell, and each character is so individualized and passionate. I have already fallen in love with Aurora, the "Moor's" mother. Strong-spirited, quite bold, capable, and even though it takes place in the early 20th century, she bides not by the rules of men -- she rules above men. Of all places, in India. The setting seems to be in India, but it's also somewhat in a magical place, not quite real. Influences from all over the world exist, and so much history is there, from the Jews and Moses and Abraham and Nebuchadnezzar and the Babylonians, the Andalusians and the English and the Russians, even Lenin is mentioned. It's a hodge-podge of history, places, people, and all swarmed in a perfect potpourri, like neapolitan ice cream, each part distinct, and yet so deliciously concocted.

I tend to breeze through novels. I read almost as fast as I write, which is at an alarming speed. However, this one, will take a while. I may not be able to read the great many books I've planned to read this summer, because of Rushdie. Somehow, the challenge is completely worth it -- even my mother, who claimed Rushdie was dry, went to the library and checked out a Korean translation of this novel. We will, of course, be comparing notes. She's also borrowed the 5th Harry Potter book, which I've already read -- we'll also be talking about that. What an odd set of books to be discussing with your mother!

Learn Korean

Learn Korean

Learn Korean -- somehow, I feel quite guilty that I never got around to doing something like this.

Inner Leo -- Unleashed!

Inner Leo -- Unleashed!

I am a Leo, astrologically speaking. If I could be an animal, I'd be a Lion -- why be anything else, when you can be king(or queen) of the jungle and animal kingdom? Ok, maybe a monkey, but Lions are pretty cool.

So astrologically, not that I believe in horoscopes, I should be an outgoing, fire-breathing chica who dances the night away and soaks in the spotlight. I was an introverted person for the longest time -- pre-adult years I was pretty outspoken and bold, but after I became a legal adult (18+ -- oh great, now people are going to Google for porn related topics and come to my blog!) I became shy and reserved and modest, of all things. Recently, since life has decided that 'shitty' should be the ultimate description of my life, I am not so eager to get along and go with the flow and conform. I am angrier than ever -- I am again a dangerous woman. Rub me the wrong way and I will explode.

My life officially sucks ass. Please, forgive my vulgar and profane language. But it reeks. Living my life feels like drinking down rancid, curdle-y milk, then trying to smile about it. Even for those of you who aren't lactose-intolerant, it makes your stomach churn with severe discomfort, doesn't it? But something good is coming out of it. I think what they say ... "what doesn't kill you will only make you stronger" is true for this situation. Each day I feel angrier and even more determined to "make it" in this world. Every time something goes wrong, it's more of an incentive to pound on the pavement a little harder when I walk, to type on the keyboard with a little more passion, to sing just a little louder, to eat a bit more heartily, and to live a little better. I'm not going to be out-done by my own fate!

Unkymoods!

Unkymoods!

I've featured "Unkymoods" which is on your lower left -- it is supposed to depict my particular mood for the day. Well, I found it extremely dissatisfactory, because they don't have nearly enough of a selection! I am very particular about my feelings on a particular time -- I would need more than a measly a hundred or so ways to describe my emotions! If I can only muster up enough motivation to remove it from my template...

New Item on my Wish List

New Item on my Wish List

Click Here for the story.

This is now on my wish list for my upcoming birthday. Feel free to buy me my own Island!

Sunday, June 27, 2004

What's Cooking?

What's Cooking?

I love to cook. However, I'm not a very good cook. I say this, because while I am quite capable of reading a cook book, I am not very good at following simple directions, nor do I understand the harmony of different food products.

When I bake cakes, it usually comes from a box packaged by Betty Crocker, Pillsbury, and etc.. When I make pasta, it's usually hamburger helper or tuna helper (hey, but I do make a pretty darn good hamburger/tuna helper -- I think it's time I tried the chicken helper!) I honestly wish that I could be a better cook though, and by cooking, I mean starting from scratch, or at least close to it. Not merely tossing things together in a pot and boiling it. If anyone has ideas on becoming a good cook, please feel free to enlighten me.

There are two good things I am able to make. I know how to make the world's most fabulous spaghetti. Of course, I don't make the sauce or the noodles, but it doesn't come in pre-packaged portions with directions. Second things is, I make good drinks. Smoothies? Milk shake? Yogurt soju? I can do it. Give me a good blender, and I will show you how! And when I say that I make good smoothies or other beverages, I don't mean following directions closely. I just know how much of each ingredients should go in, depending on my feel of the day. Sometimes more fruits, sometimes more milk, sometimes more ice cream (in fact, more ice cream is always good!). It's like when you ask an old housewife about recipes. They don't normally give it to you in exact measured proportions -- they just tell you add a pinch of this and a dash of that, and season to taste and etc.. That's the hard part, but when your soul goes into it, and you just feel your creation, you just know how much of something should be added in, and even if you're missing an ingredient, you just know how to make up for it with something else. Maybe try mandarins instead of lemon, or something like that.

I think all creators have things in common. Whether it is creating a novel or a poem, creating a portrait, or creating a new fusion pizza, you're creating something from nearly nothing. You're concocting something from the most basic and elementary things, and your work results in masterpieces (on a good day). And each product produced, whether it be a delightful etude on the piano or a sensually languorous landscape, or the most ethereal piece of chocolate you've had, is a marvelous indication, a delectable motivation, on why you create, and why you must create.