Hello! Welcome to Haemicuda v 7.0. I hope everyone likes the new look... I know I do. It's not much different from the last cheezy page, but it's brighter, cleaner, and the graphics are bolder. No more pink stuff all over! As much as I do like the color pink, it was getting hard on the eyes.

I felt like putting some sort of citrusy fruit on my blog, because of the renewed feeling I had this morning. As everyone knows, there had been some serious fires all over SoCal -- very stubborn and destructive. Last night, it rained. It was much cooler -- almost cold, and it rained quite a bit. Because of the rain, the fires were much subdued. I half expected to wake up to a cloudy chilly morning, but guess what? The sun was shining with all its might and brilliance! The sun is still shining. The weather is cooler, but it's really bright outside. I just wanted my blog to capture that essence, and I hope it has.

It's been a while since I really put time into this blog. Ok, just two weeks or so. I don't like this layout.. although it is a change from the "autumn" look from before, but this was actually a transition template. I've dwelled too long on this look, and I really need to change it.

Speaking of blogs... I have G R E A T news. Whenever I do S O M E T H I N G like this, it can only mean that I am being exceedingly cynical, so don't take me seriously. I was looking through my past archives of this blog, just to see what kind of templates I have tried, and just to get a sense of nostalgia, I guess, when I realized that a period of time have disappeared. Yes, a period in my life has disappeared. I don't know exactly the dates, but a couple of months of entries written in the summer have mysteriously vanished.

I actually realized this a while ago, but it is really hard to accept. I tried to do something to restore it, but there's nothing much I could do, except possibly e-mail blogger tech support and ask, no, d e m a n d for it back. But I don't think I want to do that... I don't even know if they can. I keep telling myself, it's not like I was writing a great novel, or writing some nobel award-worthy quantum physics theory... it was just some stuff I typed, meaningless jargons. But they're gone, and even the craziest worthless crap I've written is my own, and it's disconcerting to see that they have just been annihilated -- vanished without a trace. And it's not just one entry; it's more than a month's worth, and I just feel like getting myself on the asphalt on a side walk, screaming and crying bloody murder. Sad.

I guess there are more important things in life than some blog entries. I mean, it's free... I don't even pay for anything... not blogger, not villagephotos.com, even the time I spend is from work, so technically, I am getting paid for the time I spend on my blog. Getting into nursing.. that's important. Family.. that's important. Of course, blogging about it all... priceless. The extent of cheesiness that this blog is currently exhibiting is unbelievable. I am cheesy. I am boring. ARGH!!!

I saw a unique Korean documentary last night on video. It was regarding a "Badger Song" -- Korean call this ???×¼? and it was quite interesting. This eerie music, shown with a flash animation evidently makes internet obsessed teens go crazy and commit suicides. I am sure you can see for yourself if you go to Google.com and search for Badger song. The lyrics go something like this... "badger badger badger badger badger badger badger badger mushroom mushroom snake snake..." and the animation consists of very cute looking badgers doing some sort of dance (flapping front legs while standing on hind legs) and colorful mushrooms, and a snake crawling. Rumor has it that the badgers represent the U.S. Army and the mushroom symbolizes the mushroom cloud of an atomic bomb explosion, and the snake crawling in the desert is Saddam Hussein. Another rumor says that the music is a chant praising Satan. Some say that it has subliminal messages, that the rhythm interferes with a person's brain waves. I went on line and did my own investigations, and the music is a bit eerie, but the animation is pretty cute. I actually liked the badgers -- they looked like skunks but whatever -- they were adorable looking.

Just in time for halloween! Search for the badger song, read the various forums about the badger song and its rumors and I guarantee you, you'll have a trail of goosebumps running down your spine. Nothing to lose sleep over, so don't worry. I think it was originally hosted by a website called weebl, but I'm not sure. Go do your own research.

I know it is very boring to go on and on about the fires, but it is really getting ugly. It is as though Hell creeped out of the tectonic plates and consumed California with its raging fires! Of course California has the most heathens, including myself, so it is only right that California goes first in the flames of the Inferno.

I have to come forth with some confessions. To the readers of my blog, albeit just a few, might get the notion that I have a very large vocabulary bank. This is not completely true. Of course, I did pay good attention to all the vocabs taught in all my English classes from the 5th grade to the SAT's and AP's, most of my fabulous words come from Dictionary.com. I search definitions so much that I have it in my favorite links. For example, I almost mis-used the word banter! Sometimes I assume that one word means something, when it actually means another. And of course, we all know what happens when we assume.

The sky is ashy, sun was ashy brown, and even the thin waning crescent moon was a khaki color. I see smoke everywhere, and there is a pungent smell of dry wood being burnt to crisps. It's devastatingly hot. The fires are coming closer and closer to where I live, and although I don't live on the hills and have little worry about having my home burned down, it is still affecting everything that is Southern California. The hot weather has even made my cat tired... her limbs are spread out on my chair, her head lying sideways. She's usually active at this hour, but I think the heat has gotten to her. There are no positives in my life at this moment...

The weather again is horrible. Everything looks ashy brown. I am hating it... I mean, I doubt anyone likes the situation, but it really is wreaking havoc on my respiratory system. I have so much pressure in the sinuses, and I have a splitting head ache. The least that fate could have done for me is to have my work be closed. But no. I had to go to work. There's absolutely no excuse for me to miss work. It's outrageous. The East coast got few days off because of the snow! People in the valley and Chino/Pomona area got off from work and school because of the fire. We don't even have earthquakes nowadays, and I always, always have to come to work.

I had mixed feelings about getting into nursing this winter. I want to quit my job, concentrate on nursing. But I think that might be very difficult, since I have to earn money for tuition, and I kind of enjoy having money around. But I hate work. I've been at my current job for nearly two years, and I've been selling cell phones for nearly two years before that. Before that, I've had a stint as a waitress, cashier, secretary, and sales clerk, but all I know is I'v been working too much.

I think on average, since I graduated from HS, I've done 50 hr work weeks. I'm doing about 40 hours a week now... I've cut down significantly to spend more time hitting the books. Before I used to work about 65 hours! So I've spent a lot more than my share of time working. Of course, it's not like I did it for free. But still, I would kill for a year or so of just school and no work. When I was younger, I wanted to work, because working meant earning money and pulling your own weight, and that meant that I was independent. I had power. I could buy stuff, go places, and do things. Now, I've bought a lot of stuff, been to a few places, and done a lot of things -- some I've enjoyed, some I regret. I've been there and done that, and I think I could do without working. I could spend a year or two living frugally, because I would have time, and time itself is gold. I think having some free time and being free of stress would do me some good.

I think I have just blabbed on and on without making sense. I have a head ache, and it's finally time to go home now. So bye.